Sticking With It And Believing

If you have read my last post, then you may be wondering what's going on. It seems that right now I am being reminded of just how selfish and self-centered I am. This process of dying to self is hard, especially if you are an especially self important person. What is important right now, getting my ministry running again, or making a difference in the lives of 10,000 unchurched teens in my county? What is important, recovering from the hurt and despair caused by actions of people around me or healing the damage done to God's Kingdom, and getting back on track to becoming a safe place for people to meet Jesus? A place where people believe they can meet Jesus. My life has been going from one selfish choice to another, but the whole time thinking it is sacrificial or God honoring choices first. Hopefully we can break this cycle, not for my sake, but for the hurting people God created my church to reach.

In the end, it all comes down to choice. What am I going to choose to do today? Am I going to choose to hang on to God with everything I have, or am I going to listen to friends/my selfish desires and push God out? It can be difficult to hang on, but it is more dangerous to give up and let go. Persevere, and you will be taught a great, deep, and abiding faith that can move mountains.

A Slice Of Life

Hey, it seems like it is important to stay positive and believe in good things going on. It also seems like there are times when that seems just not possible. Most of life often takes place in the middle of those two poles. A different wrinkle is that when you are in a leadership position your ability to speak those becomes hampered, because it is important not to tank anything further. The law of gravity works towards a group's momentum as well, it is easier to drag it down than to lift it up. Basically it feels like my group is on a bad skid that no one really wants to break out of it. Of the readers of this infrequent blog, does anyone have any advice on how to break out of something like this on a personal level? It is hard not to personalize all this, and it seems like I am failing. Warning though, no "pat" answers, no easy answers, and no "church" answers.